Autobiography

I was born in October 1st of 2002, when my mom was pregnant, she decided to cross the border as an illegal so I could have American Nationality, when I was two years old my dad was into drugs like meth and other substances and also my older brother was getting into it, when the time passed my dad was no longer with us and weeks later we found out that he was in jail because he shoot a man on his leg, the judge had sentenced him for 13 years, my mom decided to leave the U.S. and go to Aguascalientes, Mexico, she thought that it was better for my brother, my mom was thinking that he could left the drug behind and he did, but when I was seven year old my brother had a car accident and lost his life.

Ten years later I turned 12 and my dad got out of jail, i didn't recognized him because I've lived with my stepdad for the past 10 years thinking he was my real father and turned out that he wasn't, I was confused and had depression for 7 months, I told my mother that I didn't wanted to live in Mexico no longer and that I wanted to come to the U.S. to study, and live my life far away from that men that was supposed to be my "father".

Now I have 4 years living in the U.S. even though my Mom and brothers are in Mexico, I feel like I did good comming here, i feel like I've accomplished something that not everybody could do, I'm still in the process of learning English and looking for opportunities to get ahead in life without my most valuable things like mi family, and friends that I left behind in Mexico.

Advice on "First love"

First love by Ivan S. Turgenev presents a lot of situations were the charachters did good and bad things, I personally think that Vladimir did everything wrong, he couldn't handle Zinaida, I don't blame him, Zinaida is 5 years older, it is obvious that shes going to have way more exoerience than him, in fact Zinaida did good things, or she thinked smarter, one of the situations she did good was when he was controlling every guy and had everyone around her, so they could do her the favors she wanted, another one is when Zinaida played Vladimir, her and his father were going out in secret, not for Vladimir though, on the other side Zinaida thinked good, the next day after Vladimir knew that there was going on something with his father and Zinaida, she kissed him again so he wouldn't get mad or feel worthless. And at the begining I wrote that Vladimir didn't do anything good, because Zinaida was controlling him with little kisses.

How is first love for the first time:
The story of first love reflects to real life experiences, my experience was a little different, and I was unprepared and without any experience like Vladimir's situation, even though we all have our first love, its not the same one as others, some of us cry, some of us take it funny and not serious, even some people kill themselves because of love, to avoid tragedies and sadness, maybe I could give my personal pont of view and advise for not being sad after falling in love with someone. When I first had my first love at the age of 11 I liked this Girl named Ivette,
We first started like friends and one year after we became bestfriends, she started gaving me signs that I liked her and I did as well, she hugged me she was all over me, one night we went to get Ice cream and I wanted to tell her that I liked her and ask her if she wanted to be my girlfriend, so I did, one block before we arrived to her house I asked her to stop amd wait. I was nervous and finally I asked her if she wanted to be my girlfriend, she was quiet for a bit and she finally answered, Ivette told me that she was confused and he was going to think about it and I was shaking, I told her that I loved her so much and tried to steal her a kiss, first I hugged her and she tried to pull away so I let her' she ran into her house, the next day I had lost my best friend, I was crying alone inside of my classroom and thats the first and obly time I cried for "love" today i feel love but not to the point that I would cry or feel bad, why is this though? Because love comes and goes so quick, and every time a situation of love makes you stronger and makes you think before you act, if you feel "love" against someone, don't think about it and express what you feel, if you just want that person for not being bored and kill time just do it, it's not illegal to have more that one love and cheat in someone, on the other hand if you love someone with the fact that you are willing to stay with that person for a long period, take it serious but not put all the love on him/her, there's a 56% on this world that couples claim to be happy, the other 44% cheat or don't love their partner anymore.
This are my personal advices and opinions though, maybe I think different as others, but in love, it's better to try and gain experience so you don't get lost and have bad situations like mine or even worse.

First Love Review

      First love by Ivan Turgenev begins with a late night time, of three men sharing  stores of their first love, but when Vladimir Petrovitch refuses to tell his story, instead he prefers to write it and then come back after he is done. The story that he later finishes, he told when he was sixteen years old, and that he was in love with a princess named Zinaida, Zinaida was twenty one and also was his neighbor, she had many guys around so they can entertain her. In this part I think she just wanted him because of the innocence he has, and then she could manipulate him with no struggle at all.

Zinaida mentioned something that she worries about and makes her think about love "I must have someone who can master me .... But, merciful heavens, I hope I may never come across anyone like that". Vladimir knows that he couldn't master her in any way but he insists in loving her because Zinaida doesn't leave him alone, instead of her telling him that he's not for her, she puts Vladimir to think by giving him clues and even kissing him on the forehead, it is obvious that Vladimir a teenager that has never experienced love was going to get curious and addicted to her. As the story goes, it is proven that he wants her, Zinaida was on into his father, Vladimir notices it, he knows that he's looking like an idiot on Zinaida's side, instead of him refusing her love, he goes to Zinaida's house to say goodbye and she kisses him so passionate that makes him think a lot more about the situation.


Four years later Zinaida died and he doesn't feel bad, I think this is because the past helped him on the future, I personally would recommend this book to the audience, especially to those teenagers that had never experienced love for the first time, in fact this book could help them what love really is, not just kissing and cuddling, the feelings and what you think about love maters too.
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Lit Circles Discussion "First Love" Questions & Answers

What is setting of the book?
In Vladimir's house, Zinaida's house and the backyard

What do you think the author wants you to learn from reading this story? 

I think the author wants to show how "first love" is commonly described in the book and at the same way how it connects it into real life.

How does the main character remind you of yourself, another character or someone you know?
It reminds me of many situations that happened in my life, like more than once I remember how my friends's first love was and including me as well.

Can you relate to the main character’s conflicts or problems? 
I think his main problem was that Vladimir was putting a lot of attention to Zinaida in becoming his first love, he didn't know how to react against Zinaida's actions, even though she was mean, careless and didn't put much attention to him, he insisted in taking the situation thinking he could handle it and even take it farther and suffer from the inside knowing that she was not for him. 

What is the main conflict in the story? 
That Vladimir didn't had enough experience to see the real world because he was in love.

Which character do you like the most? 
I think Vladimir's father was my favorite character because he was taking it chill and he was seeing Zinaida at night when Vladimir was distracted or something

Which character do you like the least?

I dont have one

At what point in the story did you decide if you liked it or not? When Zinaida told Vladimir that he needed to see the reality and she wasn't in love with him, she was just using him.

Do like the way this author writes? Why or why not? 

I like how he expresses the story because even though there are some parts in the book that put you in struggle,this makes you think even farther than just the reading part. 

How does the main character change throughout the story?
At first he falls in love with Zinaida immediately and when the time passes by Vladimir takes the situation more seriously and puts him to think.

Explain how the title connects to the story. 

Do you like the resolution? Why or why not? 

The title connects to the story because of Vladimir's first love, it expresses how first love was in his situation.

What motivates the main character’s actions? 
He wants Zinaida just for himself and because he is in love.

Do you think those actions are justified or wise? 

They are justified

If you could insert yourself in the book, what character would you be? 
Vladimir's father.

Is the plot well developed and believable? 
Yes, seems like a real life story.

What passage in the book

is the most memorable to you? When Zinaida went to Vladimir's house and gave him the kiss.

If you could interview the author, what would you want to know?
Why you didn't gave up? and look for someone else

What is a character trait that you could use to describe your favorite character? 

What events cause the character to change?
 When he saw Zinaida's window open and at the same time his father entering the house.

What actions, thoughts, dialogue or reactions from other characters support your choice? 

Does the author use flashback, going back and forth between present and past?
no 

Who is the narrator? 

Vladimir 

Are there any quotes or passages in the book that inspire you? 

No

Are there any characters or events that remind you of another book? Explain. 

Was the story predictable or surprising? Explain. 

Predictable because Vladimir was sixteen and Zinaida was way older and she had many guys around her. 

Do the characters or events connect to people or events in our world? 

Yes it happens every day

Were there any parts of the story that confused you? some parts were confusing

Are there any words that confused you?
If so, can you still understand what is happening? Which words?
What page? 

If you could give this chapter a title, what would it be? Explain why. 

I would leave it as it is.

Describe what was happening and what about the passage confused you? 
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Top 10 Vocabulary Words

Effervescent: vivacious and enthusiastic.

Gestures: a movement of part of the body, especially a hand or the head, to express an idea or meaning.

Gentlewoman: a woman of high social standing.

Blissful: full of, abounding in, enjoying, or conferring bliss.

Acquaint: make someone aware of or familiar with.

Unceremonious: having or showing a lack of courtesy; rough or abrupt.

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SURPRISE ENDING OF FIRST LOVE CHAPTER 6

I think that at the end of chapter 6 was surprising because Vladimir's parents didn't like Zienida and they didn't treat her good, but instead of Zieinda getting mad at Vladimir, she told him to visit her at eight o'clock, and that's when vladimir got surprised.